Posts

When Death Stumbles Upon Me

-
When death stumbles upon me, I hope it comes a day after I have said my farewells to the people I love. A day where I have held them a little longer, said the things I needed to say, and left nothing behind that needed to be spoken. And even when I am gone, I hope you can still feel me. When death stumbles upon me, I hope it feels like being wrapped in a cozy blanket on a cold night, when the world outside is quiet and there is nowhere else you need to be. I hope it feels like those little moments when you are too tired to take care of yourself, and someone who loves you does it for you without being asked. When you are half asleep, barely aware of what is happening, but somehow still comforted by the sound of familiar voices nearby. When death stumbles upon me, I hope it feels like sitting by a fireplace, wrapped in layers, snuggled next to you, and going through every memory we have ever made together. The big ones. The stupid ones. The ones we almost forgot. I hope we laugh at them ...
Post a Comment
Read more

The Melancholy I Call Home

-
I wonder if you know that there are days when I feel empty and lost, days where I do not understand how to keep moving through life at all. There are days when I cannot express what I feel, when emotions sit heavy in silence and nothing about life makes sense to me. There are days when I feel content with everything around me, and then there are days when anxiety wraps itself around my thoughts. There are days when the unknown future terrifies me, and then there are days when I pause, breathe in and out, and whisper to myself that everything is happening for a reason, that somehow, everything is working in my favor. There are days when I do not know where to look for help, when everything feels dark and distant. There are days when I do not understand life at all, and there are also days when I am finally okay with not understanding it at all. I wonder if you know… That my mind overshares every fear with me until I lose my sense of calm. That sometimes it feels like anxiety is just a t...
Post a Comment
Read more

The Ruins Within

-
The world sees laughter upon my face,  yet fears the pain my heart embraces. How can I hand my heart away, when nothing inside me chose to stay? What once was mine, they tore apart, piece by piece, they stripped my heart. And what remains so bruised and torn, no longer wishes to beat till dawn Still, in this chaos, I survive, hoping someday I'll feel alive but every evening fades to grey, and every night loses its taste away. The ones who were meant to be my own, still left me feeling so alone. And now they say with careless eyes, "love again...perhaps this time."
Post a Comment
Read more

Psycho

-
Image
The route from the main street to my home was long, so I decided to take shortcut to go home. Now here I am walking through the alley. It isn't completely dark yet, the street lights around the corner kinda make me feel safe. Usually I take bus after my work but since I got off early from my job I decided to walk home. The breeze of cool air made me shiver. The streets had warehouses and the buildings were still under construction. Men were shouting and cursing to get their duty done quickly. I was observing everything around me when someone tapped me on my leg. I turned around to see a child who held out a purple flower to me. I took the flower from his hand and looked at him questionably. He just pointed towards someone behind me. Turning my head to where the boy pointed, I saw no one that could possibly send me flower. I faced towards the small guy who handed me the flower only to see he was no longer standing in front of me. I took a look at the flower. It was as...
4 comments
Read more

Empty Promises

-
Image
His words cut deep like a sword, That was never meant to be cured. She was left heart broken, The feeling of love for a moment was forgotten. She has been let down so many times, Now he was the one who committed this crime. He had no mercy for her feelings, There were times when she thought of leaving. Her heart is a gambler, It doesn't allow her to make their memories blur What was she gonna do? If only something good happened out of the blue!
2 comments
Read more